music genius

2008-06-17T16:05:00.002-04:00

first and foremost, and AGAIN, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY BUB PEN!
thank you for the lyrics, thank you for the sleepless nights i've caused you, and thank you, for being my friend. love you lots GEE :D

i thought i sort of neglected this lil writing space. so here i am.

i think at this point of time, it's no secret how much i love my music, and how much i believe it possesses magical powers, enabling people to connect on higher levels, able to heal the most painful wounds, and simply putting a smile on our faces on an otherwise ordinary day.

i always wished our lives were movies, you know the ability to just put it an old tape in the vcr and press play, watching and recollecting all the millions of meaningful memories from a bygone year that have since become wastefully vague and distant. when i think of our lives as movies, i like to imagine what the soundtrack to each of our own respective journeys would be.

i remember in 2005 i actually put together a playlist chronicling the feelings i had for a particular someone. it was pretty neat as i remember, with the songs chronologically ordered to reflect the days from our first meeting, to the subsequents lows, to the eventual acceptance and letting go. that was a long time ago.

i'm not sure i could compile a soundtrack for my life at present; i'm afraid there would be too much emocore and what not. it wouldnt sell i think. but i can pinpoint a song that probably reflects everything about me now. the way i feel, the way i am. my outlook on everything that comes my way, my approach to anything that will faze me. and suprisingly, it's not from one of my favourite bands.

quite honestly, i think it's one of the best songs ever. i've listened to it like 12 times in a row already. just now whilst it was playing, you came online. that was almost like a torrential downpour of emotion haha. but yeap, all's well that ends well.

i think everyone should compile a soundtrack of their lives, and it doesnt have to be everything crammed in one compilation. i think we can have many volumes, like how star wars has come up with episodes 1-6. we should have soundtracks for specific years of our lives, they might even go a long way in enlightening us on how we have changed/grown/matured.

this is the song of my life: Coldplay - Fix You

2008-04-15T12:59:00.003-04:00

to my love

i think i have finally realised why breaking up is so difficult. it kinda hit me just, in my half-druken, half-pensive stupor.

the truth is, i think we actually dont mourn the demise of the relationship. rather, we mourn the demise of a friendship. not any friendship for that matter, but probably one of the greater friendships you will ever have in life.

when you spend so much time with a particular person, you invariably get familiar with one another, accustomed to their dos and don'ts, and naturally with familiarity comes security, or at least stability. we must never underestimate how much we all value and need stability in our lives. something constant, something that will never change or relent despite all the negativity that may be going on in our lives at that particular moment. something you can always turn to for comfort and relief. someone who's always there for you, regardless of how worthless you feel, who will hold your hand and see all the beauty in you.

mums and dads are the other people who can do that. that's why i think everyone should be pretty good friends with their parents. despite my many shortcomings in my relationship with them, i know at the end of the day, they are two people from a microscopically-small group of people that are constants in my life.

i can safely say that in the two-plus years of my ever so serious relationship thus far, she was my best friend by a mile. and i reckon the hurt from a lover leaving you burns deeply and only for a short while. the subsequent pain from losing a friend is less bitter and hateful, but filled with so much more sorrow, and lasts all the more longer. some people probably never get over their best friend leaving them.

i would love to list all the things she used to do for me that made me feel special, made me feel adequate, and more importantly, made me feel more loved than i have ever felt in a long long time. but that would be going against all the promises i've made to myself about moving on (but not letting go yet).

i still sleep on my side of the bed. funnily enough, it's become second nature to leave the side closer to the window untouched. i miss her presence the second she left my sight leaving for sg after the vacations. there's a certain emptiness to the whole thing, but the spaces are not there because there's no one to hug or kiss anymore. rather, it feels so damn vacant because there isn't that one person to just hold your hand when things aren't that right, or just laugh about the silliest things anymore.

using a phrase we so often throw about but perfectly sums it all up, break-ups are truly "such a waste". the death of all that was golden in the past, the departure of what was a given thing in the present, and the demise of realizing something beautiful in the future.

passion. i reckon that's what many people go through right now actually. they mistake it for love of course, too caught up in the intoxication and ecstasy to note the difference. but passion, it's the greatest euphoria in the world, and dies down pretty rapidly.

love. you don't get overly happy-high from love. you don't brag to your friends how great your "love"-life is. that would be your social life which we so often get confused about as well. telling your mates how many chicks you picked up at a club. we often ask how one's lovelife is going, referring to questions such as the aforementioned. they couldn't be more different.

what you DO get from love is contentment. or at least, that's what i personally fervently believe. you walk around with a smile on your face, that nothing can wipe off. you're definitely not on top of the world, but all of a sudden the world seems like a decent place to be living in.

love = friendship.

perhaps one day my random musings on this topic will be read by her. maybe she will be touched and come back to me (laughs). in an ideal case scenario, i hope this does really happen. for what we are going through now, is unbearable. i thought to myself after the long talk on the phone with her that night. why does it have to be so simple and hard at the same time? i wanted to have the easier way out, but that would have meant having it the hard way for her. so i let her go.

that is love after all isn't it? that's the courtesy i was afforded anyway. making mistakes, having countless fallacies, and still being appreciated for the person i am. an initial fear of commitment, a particular dislike for wearing anything besides beaten-down hoodies, to name just a few.

perhaps in a couple of years, or maybe just months, i will look back and think how silly i sounded. i might go, "come ash, that was never love." you never know, do you. but in a perfect world, i will stand tall and say i am the luckiest man alive. in my second relationship, i was already taught the beauty of love. i was given a great friendship, and i knew what it was like to be content.

you don't need much more in life do you. everyone's always aiming so high. i'm not saying it's a bad thing, sometimes i wish i had more desire. lack of ambition is one of my greatest shortcomings. but no one knows how to be content anymore. parents want you to be a doctor. shallow guys not settling for anything but the hottest girls. materialistic girls not settling for anything but the nicest threads.

i guess the thing i miss most about having a best friend, is having someone to maintain your sanity, reminding you in this day and age we live in that we're not so crazy after all. but having said that, at least i did have a best friend. for that, i am content.

for i have been loved. or can i say.. i'm still being loved?

friendship = love.

right now, i know you still love me, and you feel as miserable as i do. but learn to smile once again. there's so much more to explore, so much more for you to experience. one day, when you feel that long-term distance isn't that much of a problem anymore. look behind you, i'm still waiting.

2007-09-24T07:25:00.000-04:00

hi it's me and i'm back again. i know i keep having monthly intervals in between posts but today feels like a good morning to blog. it's 0730 on a early monday morning, and i have footy at in less than 6 hours time but i'm not one bit sleepy. i thought i was feeling emo abit earlier when i was listening to emo songs and reading blog history and stuff like that. but i realised i'm not feeling emo. i'm feeling pretty upbeat actually, like happy-reflective. like i keep bouncing around to the music in my chair and laugh out loud at past events that i've only just remembered. pretty good actually it makes me happy i created a blog last year, cause memory never fails to fail us.

i know they say getting a tattoo is risky business cause you might regret it but i spent the last 10 minutes disrespectfully vandalising my whole left forearm and i have to admit i really like the look of it!!! i drew my trademark 'friendly ghost', a butterfly, a star, the letters MCR (for my chemical romance), and i wrote "eat spit" don't ask me why. and above my wrist and below my knuckles i wrote HW=S which i do before every game anyway (hard work = success: for those who don't know i have a history since young for being the laziest player ever). my arm looks right cool now but if i really got it inked how am i ever gonna get married!!

me and my housemates (meaning el and jones) are going to nevada next week!! should be fun cos my best friend is going (although i kinda force him along hahah!) plus jones get along really well with us in the house so this trip should be real fun. other than that, my exams wind up on the 5th of november but i wont be back that soon cause i'll be trying to pass my diving before i get back. will keep you posted.

anyway some people just dont know when to stop being irritating. it's not like we purposely choose to be agitated by a person's behavior but wow some people just push it to the max!! like abel said we're not the cool gang, we don't actively seek people to discriminate and ridicule so just be yourself and everyone's good. but when people try being someone they are absolutely not, it's not even funny it's shit-annoying.

i had this really cool dream about a week ago anyway!! it was EXACTLY like the movie '50 first dates' as in i had episodic amnesia or whatever it is called. i could remember everything before the accident but after that it was all forgotten every new day. and my family had to do the same thing, when i woke up there were diaries and cut outs about things that have happened and events in my life that were forgotten. and the really surreal thing was finding two children running towards me and knowing they were my kids even though i didn't know them. in terms of rarity, that has to be one of the better dreams.

ok i have rambled on long enough, it's good to drop by back here once in awhile to leave a post and remain blog-active. whoever still reads this, drop me a tag it would be interesting to know how many people still hit this joint. ashley out!

p.s// i think i have a rough idea of how many souls still visit this blog. most probably my mei, eva and pen. hahah thanks for the loyalty and support -chuckles

2007-07-20T10:55:00.000-04:00

hello people! woah woah it sure has been quite some time yeah.
well, how are you guys?
i've been okay, still the bz and popular guy as always -chuckes

haha i have to write this down for memory's sake and just for sheer embarassment of a certain chow yenteng. last night yenteng asked me "oi are you going 255 this sunday??"haha yes yenteng i'll see u there, be there or be square!

went out just now with charles, adam and elliot. ran into titus and marklim! and then ian.thomas so sweet gave me a phone call! ya it was gayism personified la me and elliot watched harry potter together just the two of us. damn sweet yeah?

and i must tell you elliot yeow jumped in the movie twice!! haha talk about a wimp inside a scholar's body. my dear elly, its a children's movie and you got scared by it rahahah.

below is a note to my love. please do not be kaypoh and read it.

my dear, i know of late you have suspected i have been infidel. i know rumours are flying about of me being with another girl. i want to tell you that i cannot bear to lie to you, and yes i have been involved with someone new. but i also want you to know that you are my one true love, and that while she may me the one in my mind right now, at the end of the day you are the one that is in my heart. please accept my apology and come back to me. i promise you now luna was nothing and will never mean anything to me. my dear hermoine, be mine again!!

your ashley boy

p.s// on top of all of that, the certain e.g. you know i know that nth can come between us. just a stupid fling, as you can see ;P

2007-06-14T13:15:00.000-04:00

okay so in less than 24 hours will be that time of the semester again. all the hard work (or lack of) will be finally put to the test. first paper on tuesday is AIR205-the rise of china, wednesday HPS307-personality, and finally on thursday AIR342-theories of international relations. heh heh as you can tell, i am a very boring person.

worst thing though is taking two units with the same studying of different theories of that specific discipline. meaning on one hand i have to remember the differences and comparative advantages/disadvantages between realism/liberalism/marxism and on the other hand, i have to do the same for behavioral/dispositional/psychoanalytical approaches. so hopefully during my psych paper i dont mistakenly start writing about freudian theory. heh heh why am i even talking about all this nerdy me.

tomorrow will be spent watching melbourne-collingwood although from at home because of the proximity to exams. hopefully that will follow with substantial studying which will be sufficient for tuesday's paper.

on a less snooze-inducing note, prepare for concerts galore!! omg first i read in the newspapers that sum41 and YELLOWCARD would be performing a joint-concert in august, which accounting for the fact that i enjoyed yellowcard so much last year, plus i like the new songs which i have heard so far, should be a definite unmissable. then i got an email from ticketmaster about the fallout boy concert which evangel had already mentioned, but i just clicked on the info for fun, and lo and behold, the opening acts are gyroscope and wait for it.... JACK'S MANNEQUIN!!! so what was originally a 'can miss' concert has now effectively become a "die-die-must-go!" sheesh so the next few days will be spent, whilst i am not mugging of course, on whether or not to watch. plus i missed The Used when they came so that was already a missed opportunity and the chances of these bands hitting singapore are like 0.3%???

so tomorrow promises to be a fruitful day, kickabout at carlton gardens again should be followed by a decent dinner, watching abit of footie on tv and then more mugging. no complaints really. ok updates are done, guess i'll run off and hopefully add a bit more knowledge into the big noodle. toodles!!

p.s - BABY BE SAFE!! angel you better stay alert & keep a lookout for eva! (for having a sotong sister, you have no choice really hahah!) sigh i really miss you, but have fun anyways <3

2007-04-16T08:28:00.000-04:00

heyheyhey. am i being missed by anybody? alright i guess only by my one and only dearie =/
haha hell no! all my friends love me to bits they can't stop missing me. HAHA i'm sucha narcissist! okay i shall start with my unbelievably suayest day.

today was a very bad day. i told everyone online it was the worst day of my life, and maybe it really is. haha. well you see, for the first time since school started, i actually managed to wake up on a wednesday, which is the day with the most classes for me. so i was so happy i went to uni early and had breakfast there. so first class, psych lecture. but there were two lecture theatres side by side, and i didnt know which one it was in. so i followed the one with all the pretty blonde girls (haha) including one who looked like mischa barton! haha but yeah anyway i stopped right at the door and i looked at the theatre number. had a feeling it was the wrong one so i went to the other one. walked in first thing i noticed was the lecturer wasnt aussie, indian or srilankan or pakistani, along the lines. next thing i noticed, the students were almost all hongkies, and chinese and indians. almost zero locals. i was wondering what kind of racist school is this, where they put all the non-americans in one lecture. so then i sat down and then the lecturer went to open his presentation. "CLICK" and two big words appeared "COMPUTER NETWORKING".
i was like oh shit. i was originally going to the right lecture! but i was so embarassed i just sat down and pretended to copy notes, but i had no idea what he was talking about, except maybe when he mentioned kazaa. so after that i hastily made my way out for my next lecture, media&communication. also another first time lecture, but this time i made sure i was at the right lecture theatre. took out my timetable and checked 5 times. swear it was right, sumpah! so i walked in and sat down. then the lecturer closed the door. "CLICK"-SPORTS SCIENCE AND COACHING. omg you really have no idea how stunned and appalled i was at myself. how on earth does anyone go for the wrong lecture TWICE in a row?!? but at least this one was very very interesting i was even copying down notes honestly. so what went wrong was the media&comm lecture was an hour later! i checked the venue but didnt notice the time. i am so blur, and penny was laughing her head off just now when i told her.

aargh i am so cheesed off with myself! to think i was so happy to have made it to class today! i will forever go down in the annals of himbos/dumbjocks/losers you get the idea. well at least i made it to the right psychology tutorial, and wow there was this really cute brunette. but i kinda shot myself in the foot cause after class i asked my tutor which was the correct lecture venue, and he had no idea too. so she happened to be walking past us out of class and he asked her, then she told me it was the other one, then i spontaneously said "oh shit i went to the wrong lecture today". the look she gave me was priceless man, it was a combination of contempt and ridicule i wanted to bury myself in the classroom floor. but today's psych tute discussion topic was very very good. remind me again to blog about it someday.

and to sum up my miserable day, i finally got my two weeks plus worth of laundry done. and guess how long i spent ironing my clothes? 8pm-1am with a 15min dinner at 1130. the time i spend ironing clothes is the time other people spend to actually SEW the clothes. and halfway, i heard this sorta howling noise and i was pretty freaked out. but then i realised it was coming from jones' room. haha im not being mean but you should have really heard him sing. it was quite amusing, cause he's indonesian, but he was singing JAY CHOU for goodness sake. he knew all the words to an hao and qi li xiang, and all the other chinese songs. i was very amused i recorded it down. side-track a bit, elgay was pretty much traumatised too hahaha cos he claimed he can't get concentrate as those singings already filled up cells to every part of his body, GEE you can see how serious that was considering he's the well-known scholar amongst us!

so yeah there you have it, the worst day of my life haha. its erm 825am now, thankfully my only class later is at 1500-1550 so i can wake up rest a little more. and no class on friday as usual GREAT!

have a nice day everyone! ashley out!

ps: please tag my board people, its getting a tad too boring!

2007-03-27T10:29:00.000-04:00

Spending time alone at home makes one really lethargic. After having sat down for about 3 hours in front of my computer playing around with my digital images and looking for inspiration from the net, I'm almost brain dead and everything is sorta frozen in a moment for me. The constant buzzing of the computer has somewhat become more noticeable and I'm more susceptible to zoning out, listening and looking out for things I usually will miss, like the crisp sound of the air moving or the sudden twitch of my toes..

I'm so tired. elliot william get your ass back here right now!!!

ash out!

2007-02-09T12:32:00.000-05:00

back in nj, with the summer temperatures being a real bitch. i was so looking forward to coming home but this has been tainted by:

1)missing evangel
2)blocked nose that i got on the plane
3)stupid eye infection
4)exam!

but nah, it is indeed good to be back because the apartment in nj actually feels more like home than hollandv haha.

i just have no absolute idea why they call it a glorious summer day. there can be nothing glorious about a day where the sun just burns right thru your clothes and makes you sweat like a boar. nothing glorious about being drenched in salty water!!

so yes, yesterday's high was 38 degrees which is, literally hotter than me, and it made me wonder why i even bothered leaving singapore which probably feels like antartica in comparison. my exam was a real farce yesterday. whilst preparing for it, i clicked on "exam tips" online and the guy said look up the past year exam papers for a rough idea on what questions are gonna come out. so i did and well when i sat for the paper in the afternoon guess what? it was the EXACT same paper!!! rough idea?? i actually think the past year paper gave a very CLEAR idea of what was gonna come out!! so needless to say, i think i'll do pretty decent. the funniest thing though, was how all the other student used all 15 minutes of the reading time scrutinising and analysing the paper. i took a two second glance and could tell you all the questions by heart. haha so in the exam hall. there were like 30 plus people vigorously reading the exam questions and one idiot sniggering away to himself.

lesson learnt, exam tips DO help.

today was just a laze at home and recover from exam day haha what a sloth. gonna catch epic movie tonight i think, should be good, my kinda humor. alritey then, so until i'm back again (here, as well as singapore), ashley out.

some handsome pictures of me n friends before i really go HEHE

2006-12-28T13:14:00.000-05:00

yesterday was decent; jin came over to play winning11 then for dinner dan and me met up with y3: yuwei, yuda and yuji. haha was good catching up the twins are still the same altho da said i look older haha.

zouk was pretty good. went with eva, azad, james, and enzo, hoon and the whole bunch of them. drank like mad but it was all in the spirit of good fun, azad was dancing like mad haha. and we tried to get on tv cause there was a cameraman, so azad and i went in front of him and started waving, and then we said to him "FILM US!!" and he very superbly replied "FOR WHAT?" and we straight away headed back to our seats haha.

very funny this freaking gay was dancing so close to my chair and he was screaming all the lyrics into my ear as though i wanted to learn how to sing the song. so i had enough when his flailing arms smacked my head i went up to him and prodded him and said "you just hit my head". and he was like still dancing and going oh sorry sorry and then azad came and said what's wrong and i started swearing at the guy and azad made him say sorry to me five more times and then after that he ran away to the bar. i'm just a wannabe gangster seriously, i'm damn bad to gays i think i'll get retribution one day.

james was damn funny just now he was asking me what i bought for eva, and then we ended the topic by him asking me "so what was the damage done". haha but it's so true, buying presents for girls always DOES DAMAGE!!! heh heh next year i'm buying eva one plate of rojak that's all :P

today is a lazy lazy day, eva came over in the morning just now. we just lazed, watched food channel and got hungry, mum bought us roast pork noodles home. yum now i'm just lazing as usual. ashley out!!

P.S : penny you better get your ass out of your crib and meet us one of these days. RAINING IS NO EXCUSE TSK TSK. elliot william.. see lah you didn't teach her well, look at how bold she's getting lately -insert angry face (LOL!)

2006-12-19T00:20:00.000-05:00

oh dear! i wonder if anyone still rmb this blog? haha

today was a tiring day. attempted to start christmas shopping to no avail, found nothing for myself nor anything suitable for gifts. what happened to the cool band tees from zara man, i was so eyeing them and before you know it, GONE.

ate like a pig today. meet angel in town and proceeded straight to have lunch at pepper lunch. within a few hours of walking around, we decided to stop for a drink at nydc, where i proceeded to have a baked rice as well. heh heh no wonder i wasnt hungry at all till 11plus, that's when i had the BEST HOME DELIVERY ever.

and because i'm so selfish i'm not gonna tell anyone how i ordered. but a motorbike man delivered to me, in the cold pouring rain, sambal stingray, white rice and a sugar cane juice. haha all for only $17 which is like maybe a couple of bucks more than if i had ordered from newton?? so good man, oh so good.

so if you don't already know where to get this wonderful service, drop me a line and if i like you enough, i might just tell you.

max's coming back tomorrow. cant wait hope he bought me presents haha. just joking ashley out.

and today was a day just like any other

2006-11-10T00:04:00.000-05:00

it is 12am now and due to daylight saving, new jersey is now 12 hours ahead of singapore making it all the more difficult to talk to singapore people during this time. its ok though becos then i can fully focus on my exam preparation, which with the endless chatter over msn, would likely not be eventful.

i actually blogged once yesterday but the post didnt publish fully and it was quite long and involved alot of thought so i'm not gonna bother writing that one again. it was for my sole enjoyment i guess.

pulled another all-nighter last night so i slept at 8pm yesterday till now when eva called me and woke me up cos she couldnt sleep. haha i should erm switch off my phone next time. haha but no its good, cause now i'm up bright and early after having a good long rest, ready to attack the books once again.

it looks a long road ahead till i get home with finals and all but there are little things that are pulling me through. thinking of the regular "drinks round the table" haha. all the little house gatherings playing cards and mahjong and those who intend to get wasted (KING and JAMES)
haha help yourself.

and interestingly enough, there's a litte part in my corpus callosum (haha that's neurotalk for a part in the brain) that's feeling just abit optimistic that this semester will be the best one yet. have been regularly going for classes and assignments have been handed up on a reasonable time (as compared to the old 4 weeks overdue). fingers and toes crossed, this semester's results will be excellent. ashley out.

P.S // this morning we went to the market nearby cos weian had to buy groceries for us because he was cooking dinner that night! heh heh dinner by weian was good (oh man, dear penny missed it aww .. ), i finally got to try to much-hyped "teriyaki salmon on a bed of mash". the master chef didnt disappoint, it was a fantabulous dinner. penny don't jealous LOL

2006-10-26T00:39:00.000-04:00

I am living proof that mounting stressballs are grumpy monsters.
Stressballs do not make fantabulous company.
Stressballs are so consumed by their own stress that they neglect to write their essays according to the proper guidelines. And when they realize their mistake halfway through, they contribute even more to their own stress by freaking out.
Stressballs take their anger out on those closest to them.
THAT'S NOT THE WAY STRESSBALLS SHOULD HANDLE THEIR STRESS.

anw who duly wins the FRIEND OF THE DAY award, which has gone missing for a long time. well, it could also be a friend of the week/month/year award seeing how jin has been such a good friend to me ever since i got to know him.

i hope he knows i'm not just using him for his infinite bank of knowledge BUT just now, patient old jin took more than an hour to explain to me certain concepts in the IR scene, and well basically he wrote my whole essay out in point form haha.

so all i am doing now is piecing everything together, along with finding suitable quotes. i wish he wrote a book, then i can just quote him on everything. "Lim (2005) said...". heh heh ohwells. gonna have to treat him breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper for a whole week to repay him man. haha if i get a HD who knows, i'll throw in a couple of lemon melons!!

There, now the stressball can get back to the essay, 700 words left. ashley out! :) :)

ps// my BEST friends (i bet you know who i'm referring to), have you any idea you really scare the hell of out my brains, kidneys, lungs...er okay you get my drift. hope everything is going well lah, i love you!!!! please don't let anything go wrong. and lastly, take care of evangel for me hor, HELLO BABY I'M DYING HERE, VISIT ME SOON :(

2006-10-20T08:26:00.000-04:00

At times, I wonder what it would have been like to have been just your friend. I wonder what it would have been like to never need to live on the fact that you would always be happy with or without me. I wonder what it would have been like to have never use that harsh tone on you and judge you even when I never really meant to. I wonder what living the last few years of my life would have been like without contenting myself with the simple knowledge that you're well.

I would have liked to have just been a friend.
I would have liked to just laugh with you, instead of feeling overly happy to see you smile.
I would have liked to have known just what my friends feel being just your friend, to hear first hand, the daily happenings of your life whilst what I know is what I simply hear from others.

I know you'll be better off if all these 'would haves' come true, but I can never bring myself to say those words that you would like to hear.
Being self-centered, but I'm ain't asking for alot.
Or, am I?
No dramas, I know that's just the way it is.

El

2006-10-11T00:57:00.000-04:00

LOOK!! she's our fav girl, our baby of the grp. Mandes Danielle Teo Chun Ting
she's so cute lah (like me =P), although she gets abit emo sometimes, she's still so adorable.
hey where are the guys?? STRICTLY NICE GUYS ONLY, NO GIRLS, BUNGS, OR WHATSOEVER THANK YOU.

Happy Birthday Again, Dannie!
Best Wishes, Love You!!

2006-09-26T12:47:00.000-04:00

isn't he cute? omg!! so CUTE!!!

HAHA and that's me. hee

and to benefit someone .. here's some pic of el handsome

so macho lah.. i lose. hahah
that's all folks.

2006-09-20T05:36:00.000-04:00

last night we went to clayton just dan, el and me to go have korean BBQ with our clayton friend mr kevin!! and after having only 8 tiny tau sar piah the whole day, and going to to gym in the afternoon, i must say i was freaking hungry. and glad to say, the food did not disappoint our tummies!

we had combo set A which was alot of beef, ox tongue and pork belly, as well as another serve of spicy beef, and it was damn freaking good. seriously like the meat is damn good quality and its so damn tender it like trashes the beef seoul garden uses la.

after that, el stayed over so we went to have drinks at the bar below. we had 2 pints each, before proceeding upstairs to play daidee and consume a small bottle of raspberry wine and a normal bottle of dessert wine.

understandably we were all abit over-happy after that haha. and we had a very good chat. thanks el, appreciate it and its good to know i'm not alone in feeling certain emotions.

haha ok ashley out!!

p.s. dearest sister penny, i know you're flying later already. pls have fun & take care at the same time. woah i really envy you lah. tsk tsk. we love you, bring more goodies back yeah and post it to nj hehe

2006-09-08T09:51:00.000-04:00

白色风车

白色的风筝安静的床枕
沉睡的感觉梦见那遥远
天边的海水复杂的眼泪
看你傻傻走握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福但爱你并不孤独
不会再让你哭

我陪你走到最后能不能不要回头
你静静的抱住我说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么反正不会松手

我陪你走到最后能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手晚一点才到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
我陪你走到最后能不能别想太多
谢谢你让我听见因为我在等待永远
*谢谢你让我听见因为我在等待永远

mr jay's saddest & best song in his new album.
our penny & mandes dear think otherwise, hahaha to them ALL jay's songs are nice no matter what (-_-")
and right now when i'm typing someone is humming this song behind me hehe..
aiyah do you still needa guess? that yeow ah yeow lor OPPS
i think i had to much to 'type' today ;P

p.s : i really like the way he sang those two lines which i've highlighted

2006-08-26T13:14:00.000-04:00

the latest song i've fallen absolutely in love with.

first looks and carousels at the day-time fair
first words that i could tell right then and there
would mean much more to me than they would to you
in march more than i ever need is you
when ive gone away
all i can say

miss watching you dance the whole night away
remember the time i left and you asked me to stay
all the way back home right now you're really far
miss you for you being who you really are
-

why is that you're sleeping at a corner visible to me and i'm already starting to miss you

spend every waking moment thinking of you,
spend every sleeping moment dreaming of you.

2006-08-16T10:21:00.000-04:00

okies i'm back!! heh sorry for lack of updates been bloody busy this past week.

well in terms of meals, this week was fantastic!! we cooked almost every single day and it was pretty good nosh everyday! and i just baked honeycomb muffins an hour ago and i've already ate two! they are pretty nice i must say.

school work's fine, essay is coming along well. hope this semester is everything the rest have never been. and i've been busy bringing the darling to different places she had missed the other time. she had fun, so do i. this moment of time can never be better =)

promise more frequent posts, ashley out!

2006-08-06T11:22:00.000-04:00

my first assignment of the semester is due this coming friday but i'll probably get it done by thursday so i can hand it up, rather than have to go to school on friday just to hand it up.

everything else has been a little stressful and straining lately, but it'll be better i guess. everyone has off days. my angel is coming very soon. SOON. :)

i think of where we'll be today,
think of how great we'd be today
i still believe in the stars

ashley out!

2006-08-04T00:01:00.000-04:00

one day i hope i can do the things i cannot do now. one day i hope i would have grown, that i wouldnt be so afraid. one day i hope i would dare to take the jump and see where i end up. one day i hope i can be the person u want me to be. one day i hope i can say the things u want to hear. one day i hope i can make this easier for both of us, and that you wouldnt be the one having to compromise all the time. one day i hope the constant frown on my face will be a never-ending smile. one day i hope all our obstacles will disappear, the displeasures, and the disagreements, and the quarrels. one day i hope i'll be able to make you the top priority in my life. one day i hope all that you're asking for isnt too much for me to give. one day i hope i can make you smile and be happy.

but that one day, isnt today.

today i still cannot do many things. today i still havent grown, and i'm still afraid. today i cant say the things u wanna hear, and i cant make this easier for us. today our obstacles are still here, today all that you're asking for is too much for me to give. today i cant make you smile and happy.

but that also doesnt change the fact that
today i love you.

baby i need you to know
i can face a hurricane and still be standing tall
when all the dust has settled down
but i cant take the distance

and ive just fallen in love again with a song that got me through alot of crap last year.

and i know, i leave you on your own
and i need you to be strong, as i'm walking away
and i, i hate to say goodbye
it gets harder everytime
what i feel, you feel inside
when the day turns into night
-dayturnsintonight/busted

i think tonight i have to hug elliot to sleep SIGH

i can look at this all night :)

2006-08-02T02:14:00.000-04:00

i am so dead tired. but today was a doubly good day.

today was my longest school day of the week and i went for EVERY SINGLE CLASS. which is something i havent done since thames i think. go for every single class of the day that is! so i demand THREE CHEERS FOR ASH!! somemore i left the house at 9am and got back at 7pm that should tell you what a long day i had and how proud you should be of me!!

but the first thing that made today good was how rewarding i found going for class, and actually paying attention, can be. although difficult to comprehend, i managed to understand what the lecturers were talking about eventually. i was like in the front few rows for all the classes haha what a nerd!!

psych lab was sick tho, we watched a video and they showed an actual operation of a brain being split into half!! damn sick first they used a surgical scissors to cut the dunno what apart and it was all slimy and YUCKS! then they actually sliced the brain into half. i honestly felt like puking. hope you're not eating as you're reading this!!

and what made today DOUBLY GOOD is I PASSED MY LAST SUBJECT!! the one that was unconfirmed, i passed it! give another six cheers for ash! so my results for last semester are 3 passes and 1 distinction, which honestly arent bad rite??

heh heh NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!! gonna sleep in (which i totally deserve), go out for lunch, play soccer, come back, glue my ass to the couch and watch dvds which i borrowed like a decade ago?!

and i'm counting down to the days my darling evangel goh is coming to visit me. its a last min decision cos we just realised our holidays falls arnd the same dates! not used to a long distance relationship so its been proving pretty trying. but i shall cope and make it through. i dont like public declarations of love haha. so here's a simple 'i love you' and 'be good'. cant wait to see you again : )

ashley out!

plainly cause i see myself in you
not the way i walk, or the way i talk
but because i could see you love me too

2006-08-01T02:19:00.000-04:00

HAPPY 6 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY DEARIE!!!

huff and puff! so we've made it through six months now (FINALLY!! haha) and i have to say its been a long and arduous journey. but, i must say every single moment of it was definitely worth it, its only made me and us stronger and for the better. if you had told me last year that my second relationship would actually last for so long, i would have laughed and taken it any day. so yes, there it is.

had school today so we celebrated last night, over the phone -_-", sorry baby will make it up to you when i get back. i was told my present would be sent over any moment by airmail! hee ok dear me now i have to get a present for evangel haha.

so yup, until the day we cannot love each other anymore, here's hugs and kisses for my dearest girlfriend.

school today was zzz boring snoring. i enjoy some lectures if the lecturers actually make it interesting but this guy was just sleeping pills man. and he looked like an extremely obese quentin taratino i swear.

okie dokes ashley out!

p.s. my own very first blog!! haha just to keep my friends from abroad updated of my so very busy life hehe. but as you can see, there's no 'links' column 'cos i'm really lazy and busy to type those urls one by one. so friends am sorry 'bout that ;) have a nice day ahead everyone. GOD BLESS!!